What's bugging me? I really gave some thought to this question for I had been living with the distinct sense of un-ease lately.
Then, like Nessie, rising from the depths of Loch Ness, I realised what it was. Gee, it takes so long, without a teacher. Hiding away had been my attachment to the Vow (the bodhisattva vow which shapes our life as monks.) And which I thought I had let go of long ago, but that was only an idea. Letting go of it, Big Mind became compassion, infinate, boundless, all-inclusive.
Either way, my mother as a young woman in 1918 saw the Loch Ness monster while on the family outing from the Manse!